Once again, the cycle comes again in my never ending spiral called life strike with the low, depressed moods. Totally drained, no one to talk to in a way where I wouldn't sound more whiny than what I'm writing here. -_- Uhg!!!!!!!

Totally can't get myself to play FFXI or WoW for more than 15 mins before I just daze off on a website or to watch TV.

Hell, my grades aren't as good as normal. Then again, this time of year has always been my lowest point, emotionally and academically. If I get dismissed from DeVry seeing how I'm on prohbation from failing Critical thinking last semester, gonna fail calculaus and gsp130, yeah, thats real sweet -.-;

I utterly don't know what it is I want in life. Nothing appeals to me, nor does it make any sense to aim for anything. I still haven't had a moment where I can just draw without getting the same affect as I would trying to play FFXI or WoW.

Oh speaking of FFXI, friday, 12/7/07, had to be one of the most weirdest in terms of freaked out and getting pissy dynamis runs I've had, and skype conversations. Listening to our gloreous rdm second incommand being smashed, and then being without a skype conversation for a good half of the run really just sucked the life out of me. Really tops it off when we didn't get clear either. Wth, bastok is supposed to be easy clear -.-; ARGH?!!?!!!!!!!

Bloody hell, it feels like I'm still gaining weight again. Damn it. If stress i'm feeling was tangable, it'll be a freight train loaded with lead hitting you over and over again.

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